DILEMMA

It’s been more than a year since i’ve worked in this government agency. I have great and nice office mates, i have nice bosses, and i have nice friends. By working there, i also get much new knowledges, new experiences, new memories with the work, with the friends, and i also earn money by working there. Overall i am so excited. But still there’s something that makes me quiet unhappy. As you know, actually i am in wrong major. Actually, since i was being a little kid, i’ve been dreaming of becoming a doctor. But, yes when i was on the last year in high school, i was disallowed to take the medical department. I was disallowed to make my dream come true. Mom and family suggested me to take the IT Department in college. Yah, because i didn’t want to become ANAK DURHAKA, i accepted their suggestions, and i took IT Department in college. The first year, the second year, till the last year, i was so suffering with all these things. I had to do what i really dislike, the things which i hate the most. I hate IT, i hate coding. Wtf! But, i just couldn’t believe that i could so easily studied IT there. As if God made me so easier to study there, to take my degree. My GPA is so satisfied, and for the wonderful one was i could studied there to get my bachelor degree for  7 semesters (3,5 years) only and it made my parents (quite) proud of me. But for normal case, it takes 8 semester (4 years) to take a bachelor degree. While i was still on college, i’ve ever been an assistant for a lab work and i earn money for the first time. I was paid by campus because i taught as a practical assistant. But eventually with the ease i got by studying there, i still can’t love IT. I still can’t love my knowledge, and my major.

Finally, after i got my bachelor degree, i’ve got the job. And my current job relates to the IT world too. Oh God, why all the things always relate to IT, the things which i dislike so damn much? Does my destiny always relates to IT? Oh no! I’m so suffering God. It doesn’t mean i’m not happy with my job. I’m happy for having great office mates, i’m so happy for having great bosses, i’m so happy with the facilities. I just really want to get out from the IT world. The world which i really dislike. I want to work what i really love to do. Pianist maybe? or Chef? catering entrepreneur? Own a restaurant maybe? or the worst choice is i’m gonna come back to college, to medical department, to take my childhood dream and make it come true to become a doctor. Whatever! I know, God is gonna show me the best way. I just want to be happy with all the things i do, and i work. Money just can’t buy happiness but we can’t deny that without money, we just can’t be happy because i can’t buy anything i want, and i can’t go wherever i want.

Notes: Whoever you are, even you are a daughter, a son, or even you are a mom-to-be, or a father-to-be, or even you are a mother or a father, please give your children the freedom to choose the things that they really love to do as long as they are on the right track. Don’t force your personal desire to them. Please let them choose their way.

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